Much needed updating =)

I know this is a little late, but with as hectic as things are around here I barely get to read everyone else's blogs. Much less write my own. But I think we are finally getting the hang of the schedule around here. Caylob is in T-Ball now and we are trying to juggle having Bible Institute on Tuesdays and Church on Thursdays. But anyways things are finally settling down and that is the important thing.



Baby is well we heard the heartbeat at the last appt. It was 160ish. We go back on the 5th of May which is Liana's birthday for a check up and then two more weeks we will have the ultrasound. I am not quite sure if we will find out the sex or not. I guess we will see when we get there huh.



As far as Dot (a.k.a my mother in law) all is well. She is back at work, but they are working with herand letting her sit, stand, even lay down when needed. They get everything for her and all she has to do is sit there and stamp some garments with ink. They also do not have enough work around there to keep everyone for every shift, so they are asking ppl if they want to stay home on some days. And they ask her for each of them. So she worked Mon., Tue., off Wed., worked Thur. , and will be off Friday. Now sadly this is without pay, but she can finacially handle it for a little while. SO she is doing pretty good. Her leg does get really stiff tho, because she cannot relax at work like she can at home.



Caylob has actually started playing ball. His first game was Mon. night and he did soooo good. It was so cute watching them all out there trying to do what the coaches were telling them. Half the time they were not even paying attention to the game. They were to funny, but Caylob had a ball and I cannot say I did not get a little excited a time or two. =)


BTW we now have AC in our house. WOO HOO it is supposed to warm up pretty good this weekend. I was kinda stressing. But Frank called and reminded the land lord about it and two days later we have air!! Not a perfect fix by no means because we now have just a cooling unit and our heat is still a gas heater on the wall. But they will suffice. Plus we are planning on starting to look for a new house to buy soon. We are just waiting on some financial issues to get straightened out. But it is all good.


So that is all I can think of right now. Have a good one all!!!!

Happy Birthday Jaycob!!!!!

I have tried many times today to sit down and write a big ole Happy Birthday announcement for my youngest baby, but my emotions have kept me from it. Partly because I am a pregnant hormonal woman and my BABY is turning 2!! And the other part because of the sadness this day brings. I am so thankful that I have my son today, I call him my survivor baby =) Most everyone knows why.

Let me tell you that little nickname is going to fit him to the T if he continues on the path that he is headed down. This child is a daredevil and ALWAYS climbing as well as getting into trouble. And the most frustrating thing is he knows he is not supposed to do these things, yet he does them over and over!! Then he wants to look at you with the cutest face and throw his hands in the air and say, "NO?". It is so funny and frustrating at the same time. But he is a blessing none the less. I thank God for the privilege of being able wake up every day and see Jaycob's face. And what a cute one that is too. =)

My little boy is not so little anymore. He now sleeps in his own bed. And just recently he started to go to sleep on his own without the help of a bobo (a.k.a pacifier) So all my kids are broke from that thing until little one comes along. And I have said that this one will not get one if I can help it. Probably an empty threat tho...hehe. But back to Jaycob, he is so independent now everything is "I do it!" And he LOVES LOVES LOVES to talk on the phone. If you need to talk call him he would love to talk to you on the phone, maybe not to your face, but on the phone is not problem. He is a stinker. I love him soo very much.

I can't help but to look at him everyday and think to myself that there could have been two of him. Occasionally I find it a good thing that there are not, but mostly I long for having them both. I may not have ever been able to hold my living, breathing, full of life Jeffery, but I miss him as if I had. I feel like the day he was born I took whatever life he had away. But it needed to happen for Jaycob's sake and I would not have had it any other way. But it still hurts. I know there was no way that he would have ever formed properly, but I can't help to think, "Man that would have been wonderful!' But I know also that God had a purpose for Jeffery. I do not know what that was, maybe through the whole ordeal we touched someone's life, I can hope that happened.Maybe I will never know, but I do know that I am thankful to God for giving me Jeffery. I am a different person now, I guess stronger would be the word because of the whole ordeal. And I hold on to the fact that I know that I will see Jeffery when I get to heaven. I will be able to see his face, and see the life in him. And he will greet me as if he has always been by my side.

I am sorry to have gone so mushy gooshy on ya, I just needed to let that out. While I am thankful for Jaycob and believe me I cannot count my blessings enough for him, I am still so sorrowful on this happy day, for the loss of my baby Jeffery.

But even though it is late..... HAPPY BIRTHDAY my baby boys!!!! Mommy loves you!!!

This is me at 71/2 months with Jaycob and Jeffery

This is the day Jaycob came home from the hospital.

And this is my little man now, he is so big!!! Too CUTE!!!!

First Doctor's Appointment.

Well we finally had our first doctor's appointment yesterday for the baby. We started a new doctor this time because my old one is retiring this month. I am not really fond of change, but he seemed really nice! All is well with the baby, the doc. estimates that I am 7 weeks. I think Frank was a little disappointed because he was convinced that I was farther along =) Oh well I don't mind baking a little longer. So my due date is October 26th. He of course wants me to do another c-section. So he told me that he typically does them about a week before due date. so around the 19th is what he said would be good. Now keep in mind Caylob's birthday is the 21st. Ha and Jaycob and Liana's birthdays are really close too.

He of course was worried about my last pregnancy, but is convinced that it has no bearing on this pregnancy, so he decided not to consider me high risk.The only two risk factors are my weight and my past c-sections. So I will do the normal routine. Up to 26 weeks I will go every 4 weeks, then go every two until I am 36 weeks. After 36 weeks I will go every week. He was really good on giving details. I will have an ultrasound at around 18weeks. Not soon enough for me, but I will deal with it ;) Also I am excited to hear the heart beat which should be next time. Our next appointment is on April 7th.

Over all the visit went great and I am good with the doc. Frank likes him too because the doctor included Frank in on the conversation, unlike Dr. Fitts. He always made Frank feel like he had no say so in my pregnancies.

I am feeling very fatigued, I cannot wait until I get my energy back! I don't know what I will do with myself. But until then I will do my chores in spurts.

Have a good one all!!

Well here goes.

Well most of you know already, but I am going to make an official announcement on my blog. I am pregnant. We found out on Friday. Yes this will be number four. No we are not nuts...lol. Well maybe a little. But yes we do know what causes this and we do believe that we have mastered the art. Just haven't gotten the art of preventing it down yet.....hahaha. But we are super excited.

Ok this is weird. We had decided on doing a joint birthday party for Bradly, Ricky, Krissy, Frank, and I on Saturday Feb. 14. because we all have a birthday in either Jan. or Feb. We still do a little something special on our birthdays, but we always have a joint bash I guess. Either way. I had been wondering what to get Frank and praying too. I just could not come up with anything. So the day before I was sitting there and all of a sudden something tells me to get a pregnancy test. I now believe it was not something, but someone...catch my drift. I had no signs except for tiredness and my vision was a little blurry. But I figured that was from my new glasses. Well I thought to myself, " Ha that would def. be a gift to cover Valentine and birthday, if it was positive." I kinda went into it thinking that nothing would come of it and I would still wind up having to come up with something. But I have heard quite a few times here recently about how God has a sense of humor...lol. And the rest you guys can figure out. Lets just say I had MY gift covered and I guess Frank did too...haha.

Now I will tell you the story of what happened the day we found out. Friday I was making cupcakes for Caylob's class' Valentines party and I needed more sprinkles for them. Wal-mart was completely out so I had to go to the $ store.So Frank, Liana, Jaycob, and I loaded into the van and headed into to town. While in the dollar store I picked up a pregnancy test and before I went outside I hid it in my purse so Frank would not see it. And yes I paid for it. =) Either way I got back in the van and we went to the bank. We kinda agreed that Frank would go in and that it would probably be a min., so we decided for me to go to my mother-in-law's house, which is right down the road, to pick up some things and let Liana go potty. She was doing the "dance" in the back seat the whole time we were trying to figure out what to do. So either way I went ot Dot' s and let Liana do her thing and when she was done her and Jaycob went to play. So I decided to go ahead and take the test. Well in less than a min. the lines appeared and all I gasped and could not breath in for a min. I was def. happy and shocked. Either way I decided right there that I was going to wrap it up and give it to Frank for his Valentine/Birthday gift.

Ok Frank had been up ALL night working and was up really late in the day from all the errands we ran, so he was really cranky. We were in our room and he was ranting about something, I really was trying to listen but I kept zoning out debating on giving him his "gift" early. Finally I decided that it may help lift his spirits if I gave it to him. And I was being selfish too because I did not want to have to hear it all day ;) But either way I pull the test out of my purse and hand it to him. He looks at it and says, "What's this?" Then he said," Are you?....Really?" The whole time I am sitting here laughing and shaking my head yes. And a smile krept across his face and did not go away for the rest of the day.

He was so excited that he went to call my Mom because he knew that she would make a big deal out of it and scream with excitement. HAHA and she did! Then he announced it to the world I believe on Facebook and Myspace. So much for keeping quiet until the first trimester is over...lol. Oh welll he is a proud Daddy and I love that about him.

So now for the details. We are probably due at the end of October. I am trying to get ahold of a doc., because my reg doc. is not accepting new pregnancies due to his retirement in March. I mean come on I am special enough to make an acception for aren't I...lol NOT!! I would retire too as many babies as that man has delivered. I am actually looking forward to trying a new one. I have one that is in my plan that has beed recommended. A friend of mine also told me that she believes he is a Christian man. So as soon as I can get someone to answer the phone there I will make an appointment.

I will keep updates on here for those of you that do not have to suffer being around my emotional self these next 8 months. And for those of you that do have to put up with me I am sorry in advance. Just give me a bit I will get over it =)

Please keep us in your prayers.

Have a good one all!!!

Foto

I know I know it has been a VERY long time since I last posted. But I promise I will try to be better at it.

Today is Friday folks and that means.....Foto Friday!!

TODAY'S THEME

SWEET HEARTS

Have a great day everyone!!!!

Giveaway!

Hey everyone I have a friend that is doing a giveaway on her blog for the cutest necklace. Go on over and check it out, even non bloggers can enter. Good luck guys! Click here for the blog, and while you are it go ahead and read what she has to say, I love her blog =)

Have a good one all!

A sad day in NW TN.

Today a hero was brought home for the last time. Cpl. Keith Eric Essary from Dyer County TN was killed Jan. 7th (US time) in Afghanistan due to a suicide car bomber. He was 20yrs old and gratduated in 2006. Just a baby. He was a very hard worker and committed to his country. His honorary procession, where the military gives possession of his body to the family was today.

I was able to watch the procession and honor him as he was brought by my house. There was a sense of pride and such sorrow at the same time. I feel for his family and have them in my prayers. I never knew Cpl. Essary, but I am extremly thankful to him for his heroism and willingness to defend our country and our rights. I cannot say how proud I am to be an American. Obviously there are "changes" that I don't like coming, but I am still proud of my country and the men and women that defend it. So thank you Cpl. Essary for your ultimate sacrfice.

As I was standing outside for the procession a little while ago I had a man that pulled over right in front of me and got out and held his cap over his heart. He is a Vietnam veteran and is very bitter towards this war. He kept looking over at me and telling me, this should not be happening, we should have never been there in the first place. But really think about this, had we not gone over there and set up some kind of government what would we have today? Another Sadam I believe. I may be wrong, but I feel that we were meant to go over there. I do however believe that we should have been long gone. But things take time. I know that some do not agree with me, but I feel that God has a perfect plan and that us going there was and is part of it. And I fully trust Him to take care of His children.

Which brings me to this, I have a question for you. Do you know that if you died today, where would you go? With the way that this world is today, I belive that the end is soooo close that it is knocking on our back door. Jesus will be here soon to take His children with Him. Will you be one going? I pray that everyone of you will. I love each and every one of you. And am praying for you all.

Please keep the Essary family in your prayers and please, please, please support and pray for our troops.

Have a great day.