Much needed updating =)

I know this is a little late, but with as hectic as things are around here I barely get to read everyone else's blogs. Much less write my own. But I think we are finally getting the hang of the schedule around here. Caylob is in T-Ball now and we are trying to juggle having Bible Institute on Tuesdays and Church on Thursdays. But anyways things are finally settling down and that is the important thing.



Baby is well we heard the heartbeat at the last appt. It was 160ish. We go back on the 5th of May which is Liana's birthday for a check up and then two more weeks we will have the ultrasound. I am not quite sure if we will find out the sex or not. I guess we will see when we get there huh.



As far as Dot (a.k.a my mother in law) all is well. She is back at work, but they are working with herand letting her sit, stand, even lay down when needed. They get everything for her and all she has to do is sit there and stamp some garments with ink. They also do not have enough work around there to keep everyone for every shift, so they are asking ppl if they want to stay home on some days. And they ask her for each of them. So she worked Mon., Tue., off Wed., worked Thur. , and will be off Friday. Now sadly this is without pay, but she can finacially handle it for a little while. SO she is doing pretty good. Her leg does get really stiff tho, because she cannot relax at work like she can at home.



Caylob has actually started playing ball. His first game was Mon. night and he did soooo good. It was so cute watching them all out there trying to do what the coaches were telling them. Half the time they were not even paying attention to the game. They were to funny, but Caylob had a ball and I cannot say I did not get a little excited a time or two. =)


BTW we now have AC in our house. WOO HOO it is supposed to warm up pretty good this weekend. I was kinda stressing. But Frank called and reminded the land lord about it and two days later we have air!! Not a perfect fix by no means because we now have just a cooling unit and our heat is still a gas heater on the wall. But they will suffice. Plus we are planning on starting to look for a new house to buy soon. We are just waiting on some financial issues to get straightened out. But it is all good.


So that is all I can think of right now. Have a good one all!!!!

Happy Birthday Jaycob!!!!!

I have tried many times today to sit down and write a big ole Happy Birthday announcement for my youngest baby, but my emotions have kept me from it. Partly because I am a pregnant hormonal woman and my BABY is turning 2!! And the other part because of the sadness this day brings. I am so thankful that I have my son today, I call him my survivor baby =) Most everyone knows why.

Let me tell you that little nickname is going to fit him to the T if he continues on the path that he is headed down. This child is a daredevil and ALWAYS climbing as well as getting into trouble. And the most frustrating thing is he knows he is not supposed to do these things, yet he does them over and over!! Then he wants to look at you with the cutest face and throw his hands in the air and say, "NO?". It is so funny and frustrating at the same time. But he is a blessing none the less. I thank God for the privilege of being able wake up every day and see Jaycob's face. And what a cute one that is too. =)

My little boy is not so little anymore. He now sleeps in his own bed. And just recently he started to go to sleep on his own without the help of a bobo (a.k.a pacifier) So all my kids are broke from that thing until little one comes along. And I have said that this one will not get one if I can help it. Probably an empty threat tho...hehe. But back to Jaycob, he is so independent now everything is "I do it!" And he LOVES LOVES LOVES to talk on the phone. If you need to talk call him he would love to talk to you on the phone, maybe not to your face, but on the phone is not problem. He is a stinker. I love him soo very much.

I can't help but to look at him everyday and think to myself that there could have been two of him. Occasionally I find it a good thing that there are not, but mostly I long for having them both. I may not have ever been able to hold my living, breathing, full of life Jeffery, but I miss him as if I had. I feel like the day he was born I took whatever life he had away. But it needed to happen for Jaycob's sake and I would not have had it any other way. But it still hurts. I know there was no way that he would have ever formed properly, but I can't help to think, "Man that would have been wonderful!' But I know also that God had a purpose for Jeffery. I do not know what that was, maybe through the whole ordeal we touched someone's life, I can hope that happened.Maybe I will never know, but I do know that I am thankful to God for giving me Jeffery. I am a different person now, I guess stronger would be the word because of the whole ordeal. And I hold on to the fact that I know that I will see Jeffery when I get to heaven. I will be able to see his face, and see the life in him. And he will greet me as if he has always been by my side.

I am sorry to have gone so mushy gooshy on ya, I just needed to let that out. While I am thankful for Jaycob and believe me I cannot count my blessings enough for him, I am still so sorrowful on this happy day, for the loss of my baby Jeffery.

But even though it is late..... HAPPY BIRTHDAY my baby boys!!!! Mommy loves you!!!

This is me at 71/2 months with Jaycob and Jeffery

This is the day Jaycob came home from the hospital.

And this is my little man now, he is so big!!! Too CUTE!!!!